Im really not in a good place at the moment, I just want some help but I don’t know where to go for it. My parents really aren’t helping, My dad is keeping me in the dark with his entire life and my mum really can’t see what I’m going through. My first love and best friend took her own life just over 2 months ago and it’s not getting any easier, I’m going to miss her in more ways than anyone could possibly imagine. There are just so many things that I needed to tell her but I just never got the chance, and now she wont ever know how I felt for her. That’s not just it though.. My so called childhood friend has thrown away 8 years of friendship and memories for a fucking bag of weed instead of just admitting he took it, Its hard thinking that bud is more important to some people than you. I got kicked out of college last year and everyone’s about to go back, I miss seeing my friends and feeling like I had something to do with my life and that things could actually go however I wanted them to If I tried hard enough. I have no job and no qualifications to land me one. My life is a mess in ways that can’t be fixed, I just want someone to help me through the day but it seems no one even wants to be there for me.